I can see the end of the semester without putting on my glasses!

My brainstorming? All arrows.

It's so near! It's almost December!

This semester has been so creatively tumultuous. And I have learned many, many things about how I work, and how I need to work in order to focus the... blast radius? I don't really know what to call it. But yeah.

Screenwriting was really stressing me out this semester. It's since gotten much better, but for three months it was just dragging. I'd get things down on paper but they wouldn't be... useful, or complete thoughts or anything. I started reviewing books I read in middle and high school to dredge up some feelings/ideas for my grad film. I'm hoping it'll end up being a piece that is both nostalgic for me and an audience. But only time will tell, for that one. My idea of it's purpose seems to change a little bit, every day - so we'll just have to see. Well, today it changed a lot actually. And it felt pretty good. The script's on it's merry way again.

Editing my Fall semester film has been taxing. I've learned a lot going back and seeing what worked and what did not. The entire process, however, is proving quite a challenge. This week I'll be remedying some absent transitions with stop motion animation. I'm hoping it'll give the film more of a whimsical flare, and unite the scenes. I got some great feedback last week regarding my cut, and now it's happily bumbling along.

This semester's lessons have come about in interesting ways, and having mostly to do with what I enjoy doing in the production process, what I still need to learn, and what I simply have no skills in whatsoever. I don't very much enjoy screenwriting. I like writing novels, when I can use prose to weave anything I want. I find screenplays rather restrictive, I suppose, while not being that great at writing them at all. I really enjoy pre-visuals, storyboarding, picking colour pallets, I enjoy set work, being behind the camera. Editing is a task I will give a second chance to only if it's dealing with someone else's footage. Having to stare at mistakes I've made both as a director and a photographer over and over again are exhausting and infinitely frustrating.

In the 'I feel weird about humans' news department, I continue to be confused by most people. Respect is still a weird thing in my books. How it ebbs and flows, not only other people's reflections on myself, but my own judgements on others - and reasons why I make those judgements. It's hard not to endlessly stew over someone not wanting to spend time with you any more, or why they don't talk to you, or want to work with you. It's all very curious stuff. Most of which, I doubt will come clear in my life time. So, I'm going to see how stepping away from stewing about it feels, because it seems to be doing the trick.

I'm glad Vancouver has decided to throw us some nicer days in with the rain. With each year that passes, the rain becomes increasingly bothersome in it's capacity to just... make a not-quite-right day into a horrible one. Laundry day, not so bad. Laundry day when it's pouring rain out, the dickens. Had a lame day in class, forgets umbrella - hellish trip home. But those patches of sunshine have sure been sweet surprises!

I also got an iPhone a few weeks ago. Instagram ftw! I sort of hate it, but I sort of really love it. Want to be instagram buddies? I can definitely see myself just instagraming the business out of Christmas shenanigans this year. Just so you know.

The next ten days will be brimming with tiredness, finding frantic holds in the creative process, knuckling down and learning some science... etc. It's going to be very busy. Screenplays due, cut/sound mix/colour grade to be delivered, so much studying to do. But after my last exam next Sunday, it's Christmas potluck time - then briskly home the next day. It's going to be a fun one this year.

I'm really excited to go home (oh boy, that's in like... less than two weekss) for Christmas. It's going to be an extended holiday, which I am quite grateful for. I need some time away from Vancouver, it and I have had some good times, but really - we get on each other's nerves. I want to go see some animals other than dilapidated pigeons and hoardes of crows.

Things to Check Out -

OUR SCREENING! Thirteen third year student films! On December 6th, that's this coming Thursday. Like Facebook? Check out our event page! It's free, so what could possibly go wrong?

The His Dark Materials series by Philip Pullman. Specifically this edition. I've spent the last few weeks rereading this series and it's just magical and awesome.

Be sure to keep up with production on Rheanna Toy's short film NINA.

The Pacific Cinematheque is having an amazing set of Studio Ghibli films all throughout December! It's the only reason I'll be sad to leave for most of the month! They are absolutely magical films, and I urge you two check one or two or all of them out!

New Years Eve with CANADIAN FRAME(LINES)! I think I'll spend my first New Years in Vancouver with these fine folks! Not familiar with them? Check yourself before you wreck yourself!

Oh bother.

“When you see someone putting on his Big Boots, you can be pretty sure that an Adventure is going to happen.” 

― A.A. Milne, Winnie-the-Pooh

Smaller, more feeble brainstorms

Fall's here. There are large spiders amassing some sort of army in my back yard. There is a single pumpkin in the pumpkin patch. There are large scale brainstorms taped to my bedroom wall. And we go to picture in three weeks! It's this extreme combo of explosive excitement and withering fear. It's a tremendous rush, this challenge. I know there are going to be many that are similar in nature to it, but never twice the same. 

I'm so excited to have other people excited about my project. It's like... extrapolated excitedness. I've gotten a pile of submissions for auditions, and I just feel grateful Vancouver has such a large, strong and many-tiered acting community. Casting is something I've never done on my own before, and it's a combination of waiting, scheduling, papers (flying everywhere), but ultimately, I'm finding the experience quite rewarding. A few friends have really helped me out in getting my 'casting legs' and I really owe them a great deal. Especially when I text them with panicked, insignificant questions at all hours; 'SO WHAT IF THIS HAPPENS', 'DO I NEED TO DO THIS?', 'WHAT IF EVERYONE HATES ME?!' etc.

The beginnings of much, much larger brainstorms

I'm doing all of these new things like casting and prop renting and gear renting and doing a bunch of copyright research (oh god). It's hurdle after hurdle, but everything is quite attainable. Often through the  help of other souls' wisdom and Google, that is. There are so many ways to go about getting things done in pre-production. Although, I know it would be tons easier with a production manager, I see great value in stepping through the process a few times alone, seeing how I fare - taking the time to recognize how long some of these processes take and the hoops you've got to jump through sometimes to get an answer. I don't know, I'm pretty stoked on it.

It seems every week has a bit of a 'themed worry', i.e. last week I flipped about gear shortages combo money shortages and having to deal with rental houes. This week, the theme seems to be casting jitters (large LARGE casting tremors). Next week, whooo knooows. Probably props. Let's just call next week, 'The week Laurel freaks about props'. By the time we go to picture, everything will come full circle. We'll finish shooting, I'll go into short term hibernation (also called torpor, hummingbirds do it - science!), disappear for a few days, then come back relatively right as rain. By then I can stress about editing until the end of tiiiime. Hopefully, I can budget my time (ha) to accomodate some tiny, but rich, stop motion animated scenes into my film (which also might have a sort of working title now) - I got pretty amped on stop motion again after seeing ParaNorman.

I bought a new tea pot, I am pleased

It's pretty great to be writing again. The screenwriting class I have semester has been a lot of work so far, but it just sort of opened up some doors that haven't been opened for some time. The class demands fairly large assignments each week, but they're very open. The more I get to writing, the easier it comes to me, the more I enjoy it. Whether I am improving or not is to be seen, but it's becoming less of a chore.

Anyways.

Sorry the photos are so boring this week. I'm waiting for some 35mm film scans to come back from the lovely humans at CustomColor and Beau Photo. Then there will be so many photos!

It's inching towards sweater weather people, break out 'dem long sleeves!

Feast your brain upon:

I definitely got stuck in a YouTube loop with Vsauce 2 the other day. Just a short, periodically released video about cool mechanics and tech. Plus! There's links to anything, so you can do some learnin'.

An awesome article on this nutburgers sabre-toothed herbivore that once roamed the Earth.

Check out the fundraiser for the City of Vancouver Archives! Old photographs! Huzzah!

The event of the year, second only, maybe, to Christmas - VIFF kicked off today! Pick up a catalogue and pick out some new, wild things to see! Also come visit! I'm volunteering at the wonderful, wonderful Vancity Theater.

Super-congratulations to Sophie Jarvis, a recent film graduate of SFU, who landed her short grad film 'Worst Day Ever' at VIFF (amongst a bunch of other festivals) make sure you catch it in the short program Break Even!

Great Manta Ray of Santa Fe -

As I start to piece together this script for the fall, I find myself constantly hung up on the visuals. When I'm sitting down, brainstorming the main conflict in the film and what it can involve - I constantly find myself on the next blank page, making lists of props, costumes, songs, locations, lighting schemes and camera angles. On a secondary front, any story I have tried to write down, I have deemed not a good enough story to tell. On what basis, I'm not entirely sure. I'm not even super sure what sort of films I'd like to make. When I think of my dream jobs, two sort of float to the top. One is working in quality kids films - the other, doing camera operation for programs like Planet Earth, traveling, observing and searching for that perfect, heart-rending shot of a tiny, rare animal making it's way in the world. As much as I'd like to be the ring-master on any project of mine, I really don't think I have the ability to actively produce entire ideas. Of course, I'll give it my all while I'm in school, but it's not something I'd necessarily cling to coming out of  University. I think it would be magnificent to collaborate with a screenwriter at some point - either in a directorial or a cinematography capacity.


While reading Mike Leigh on Mike Leigh, I've come to note certain aspecs of filmmaking that continue to both astound and confound me. The debate over art is something I find particularly futile; what is worth looking at, what is worth money - which pieces affect whom and in what way. Leigh's way of doing things is unique, laborous - and through his practices he gets these devastating dramatic pieces that I, personally, have not seen the likes of. There is a film out there for everyone, I think - and as filmmakers, the possibilities are absolutely endless. Not only are there an astounding number of ways to now go about getting a film made, but film can be made to realize any truth, any dream and any image. It's something I really look forward to being involved in for the rest of my life.

I've also started exploring photography a little more as a source of inspiration for visuals. I've now shot a couple rolls of black and white 35mm stills on loaner cameras. It's a rather exhilarating activity, looking for where the light is just right. And trying to think in black and white is opening up all of these brain-doors that look for texture on a different level than taking colour photos.

Potatoes!

I also made some amazing soup the other day. With the onset of a weird chest cold, I decided that, in 25 degree weather was good weather to make a butt-load of soup in. Using Jamie Oliver's potato and leek recipe as a jumping point, I took garden potatoes, leeks, onions, garlic, carrots, celery and ham - boiled in a vegetable stock with loads of pepper and a couple bay leaves. Delish! My only wish is that our freezer was bigger so I could make bigger batches. And, as a result, eat soup forever. Also, this horrible, horrible cough is remarkably persistent - so make a wider berth around me than you usually would. I seem to have already infected my roommate. Although it doesn't seem to come with any flu-y or congestion problems, it's all up in my chest and it's really awesome.

Having harvested my first (and probably only) head of broccoli yesterday, I think the gardening is winding down. An unfortunate white mildew is slowly preying in my pumpkins, and the peas are all but done. The beans are still coming at alright intervals - onions are still coming, and I picked my first couple of tomatoes from the vine this past week. Sometimes there's a strawberry or two waiting for me in my patio planters when I come home from out and about.

I made a new friend. It's a ukulele. After a couple years of pining after one, after feeling the need to have another interactive hobby that is completely "battery-free", I'm actually having a lot of fun teaching myself how to play an instrument. It picks at my brain in different ways than reading, watching and the like.

I'm due back home in Alberta today! Where many adventures await: camping, hiking, eating, drinking, and all that business. It's a much needed holiday, I think. A time to be away from the pressures of the city for just an ounce of time before I come face to face with an incredibly dense semester. Although my anxiety is peaking at a borderline psychotic level, I think this semester's going to be a lot of fun.

Anyways, a bit of a scrappy, boring to look at post today - but I hope everyone enjoys the rest of their August. And for those returning to school of any kind this September, I feel ya.


Things to feast your eyes upon:

Experience Madeline's excellent cartoon-amazingness!

Remember to keep up with Rock Cottage Year!

Also, ParaNorman was really awesome. I recommend you all go and see it. Plus, the soundtrack is by Jon Brion. So there is nowhere you could go wrong here. At all.

Live in Vancouver, looove movies? Be sure to check out the Vancouver Retro Cinema Festival. PRISCILLA IS PLAYING!

I found this neat, very informative site that describes the inner workings of tons of still photography cameras that are a little on the old side. Here's a link to the Nikon FA portion of the site. Extremely thorough, and rather straightforward. A great guide for n00bs like myself.